PRACTICAL TRANSPERSONAL PSYCHOLOGY. IDEAL BROTHERHOOD CENTER IN CANADA

Orlin Baev

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Ideal is an acronym from "Institute for Development of Education Art and Literature" (Ideal)!

I arrived at Ideal Center on 30^th August 2003. I had called once there from Bulgaria. Brother Pierre was on the phone. He made an attempt for me to speak to the manager of the center - Sister Natasha, but he never managed. So, practically, I landed in Ideal Ranch as a parachutist, from the sky. I flied to Vancouver, British Columbia, from where I took a bus and after 18 hours trek through the Rocky Mountains I found myself in the village of Jaffrey, where the Ideal Center is. Exactly in this summer, in the Canadian Rockies, there were unbelievable fires, because of the severe heat and while I was traveling during the night I moved amongst fire and brimstone. Nature suffered a lot, but for me this was a good sign. My whole luggage was one tourist backpack, bought from the Varna Metro, with some underwear, pullovers and books. Fortunately, books already become digital and it is not necessary to drag tons of paper with us. This has always been a problem for me, because I love good books, and they are many! I got off in the village of Jaffrey. I asked people about the Ranch and one man right away took me with his pickup truck and drove me there. Canadians are incredibly kind and helpful people, especially those from the mountainous towns and villages. The Canadian village is one dream brought to life, about which a citizen of a country from the third world can only dream. To dream, because, in reality, he/she would hardly be so brave to give his/her imagination a free rein to such an extent ...

The first person, whom I met in Ideal-center, was Brother Jacque, the financial director of the institute. It was about 10 a.m. and the morning conference had just finished. Sister Natasha welcomed me at her office in Quiamet - the central building, training and conference hall. I appeared from nothing, practically without notice, reservation or invitation. I entered and had a sat down in the office. We spoke in Russian. I told Sister Natasha that I was there, because I have followed my internal impulse. I told her the story of my life, the professions I have exercised, the spiritual doctrines I had followed, the books I had read and the understandings I had. I told her that I had started my spiritual trip from the Teacher Beinsa Douno, but I had passed afterwards to the Hindu and Chinese Yoga, Castaneda, Tibetian Buddhism, etc. and that for six years I had been a member of the Varna theosophical society (Roerich Center). She told me that the Teacher Beinsa Douno had sent me to school during all these years to investigate the roads of the Truth - such as they are all over the world and that now I turned to him, enriched by a more complete understanding of his Doctrine. Usually, during the morning meetings at the temple, a lecture by the teacher Michail Ivanov is watched and listened to, but this morning, by way of an exception, excerpts from the letters of Elena Roerich about the attitude of the disciple to the spiritual Teacher were read.

I stayed at the center for four weeks, and I attended the lectures and I worked in the garden or in the kitchen. I watched the people, and enjoyed the vibration and the atmosphere of that sacred place.

Ideal center is created in 1993 by several followers of the Universal White Brotherhood, with Mrs. Natalia Kolesar at the head. Natalia Kolesar has lived in Ukraine, the Czech Republic, France, Switzerland, USA, and Canada. Her mother is Czech, and her father is Ukrainian. She obtained Master's degree in Philosophy in Prague, and afterwards she became a Doctor in Philosophy at the most prestigious French university - the Sorbonne. She speaks perfectly English, French, Russian and Czech. In her youth years, Sister Natasha often had prophetic dreams about the great Teachers of humanity: the Teachers, who stand behind the theosophical motion, and later about the teacher Beinsa Douno. As she says, in this life she has gone to a higher step and accordingly to a different Teacher. Like the student from the secular school, the spiritual student passes different classes and Teachers during his/her existences. Sister Natasha is an extraordinary personality with an incredible self-control and magnetism. Her powerful good eyes see to the bottom of the soul of a person. They say that, in the same way as in Rila Mountain (Bulgaria), round the Ideal Center, in the Rocky Mountains, there is an entrance to Agarta. Often, northern lights can be seen there, and at night, strange light phenomena, changing abruptly their course and direction, are not rarity. They say that those are the vimanas of Shambhala.

Ideal Center is located at 480 acres (one acre is as much as approximately one football stadium). At the altitude of about 1000 m, in the foothills of the Canadian Rocky Mountains. Two rivers cross its territory. There is one lake and wonderful virgin pine forests, lawns and hills. At the territory of the ashram, about 15 houses are built. They are wonderful neat, in the typical Canadian style, wooden buildings with the typical for this northern country solid insulation and pine materials. The number of the permanent residents (brothers and sisters) is about 70, and during the summer months, when the young people are free of school and work, the residents become over 100. The central building is the temple Kiyamet. A building on two floors, the downstairs of which is a kitchen and offices, and the second floor - a hall for meetings, lectures and prays. The Temple is the most colourful building in Ideal Center. The building is a dodecagon, and in each of the twelve sections, a profound message and symbolism are hidden. The Kabalistic idea of the existence with the relevant symbols and notions is depicted.

I spent four weeks in the ashram, and after that I worked tree months in a small town on the north with the Indian name Nakasp. Having in mind that I have been in more than 30 countries, I dare to claim that Canada, with regard to its development, organization and culture, is a leading country. It is very rich with regard to resources, with wonderful economical structure, with the highest average income per capita. It is one really social country, in which life actually approaches the life that is initially assigned to man. Life, in which surviving and providing of the most necessary for the physical existence means are not daily cares; life, which may be devoted to creation and complete manifestation of the humanity in somebody. In Canada, medical services are free of charge. The state employees use free dental services. The prices of the clothes and shoes are lower than the ones in Bulgaria, phone services are about 10 times cheaper, and fuel - 3 times. Having in mind that the minimal rate for one hour of labour is 8 CAD, but a Canadian does not work for less than 15 CAD, and somebody who has graduated higher education starts from 25-30 CAD per hour, we can compare these facts to the situation, in which countries from the third world like Bulgaria are. The difference is enormous. When one has once obtained a broad view of our planet as a whole, when one can compare the situations in the different countries and see the mechanisms that presuppose the economic and moral misery, artificially induced in the bigger part of our globe, one will be terrified by the genocide, to whole nations and even continents are subject. Genocide that is deliberately evoked and maintained by forces in shadow.

In Canada, people do not care how much fuel their vehicles consume. Fuel costs are a negligible part of the monthly earning. Heating during the harsh winter months is not a problem. Electricity is at a symbolic price, because of the cheap electric power generated by the numerous hydroelectric power plants and nuclear power plants. However, the majority of the Canadian people prefer wood heating, because of the specific warmth, aroma and cosiness of the fire, which that material brings to home. Dry woods in the forests of Canada are more than enough for everyone, so they are free. All you need is a petrol chainsaw man and a pickup truck. I, personally, did not see a family without these attributes ... Phone calls are based on contracts: a monthly subscription with different conditions, but most people use the following schedule - for the amount of twenty dollars per month they obtain unlimited phone calls to Canada and the United States, absolutely free calls within the city and a symbolic fee for international calls. The same is the situation with the mobile operators. If we compare the prices of the communication services in the third world countries, like our country, we will be able to look the absurdity straight in the eye and be sincerely surprised at the insolence of companies, offering similar services in the country. There is no real unemployment in Canada, however some people choose not to work and live on social welfare. The latter, by the way, are quite sufficient for sustaining normal life.

At the end of the third month of my stay in the town of Nakasp, I began to feel more and more an internal appeal, desire, which made me go back to "Ideal". I told myself - you can always work for money, but now you are blessed with the possibility to stay in a spiritual center and do certain internal work. And I went back to "Ideal".

I was in Canada totally for two years, and in "Ideal" - one year and a half. The most important sphere, the core of this center is the consciousness of its inhabitants! First of all, there are no rules in Ideal. However, this does not mean idleness. Not at all. Rules exist to direct non-developed minds. And the level of consciousness in "Ideal" is at a Himalayan height. Discipline is not externally imposed, but is an internal capability of everybody. Labour is respected, but I never heard somebody to complain about someone or someone to speak against somebody, and accuse his brother of laziness. Everybody finds the sphere, in which he/she will apply his/her abilities. Little old me, for example, worked as a gardener during the summer months, about 8 months a year, and as a translator during the winter months! The results from my translations can be seen on the site spiralata.net: "Love and Sexuality" part I and II and "Harmony"! And the results of my work as a gardener can be found in the garden of my soul, which I assiduously weeded and cultivated during my stay at that place of power! Various crafts are developing in the center, such as painting, sculpture, pottery. Music is highly respected. Everybody in "Ideal" sings wonderfully. Most of the inhabitants play instruments. A vegetable garden of several acres is being cultivated in the center. Additionally, there are about 1000 acres orchard with huge apples, pears, cherries and plums. Of course, the production is completely ecological. And not only ecological... People work with love, joy, inspiration, and songs. While working in the gardens, it is a practice, music by the Teacher Beinsa Douno or classical one to be played. The attitude towards the plants is not mechanical, but it is as a contact with the live Nature, as a communication to the four natural elements, connection to the finer layers of existence and the person. Everyone finds his/her vocation, without any compulsion. The order is complete, but it is not due to obligation, but to the clear consciousness of the inhabitants. Powerful egregore establishes; one sunny aura, which can be felt the moment you enter there. The mental atmosphere is extremely saturated and quickly vibrating. Everybody is welcomed in the ashram, but it is a fact that not everybody endures the height of the vibration. That vibration of quick frequency, formed by the inhabitants is a wonderful field for work of the searching consciousness, which is ready for it, but it is an impossible experience for its mental. Everybody is free in the ashram - absolutely free. However, freedom is an impossible burden for many people, unwanted burden for the weak minds. People usually talk about freedom, but they have no idea that it is a responsibility. It is a responsibility for their actions, thoughts and feelings. Not everyone is ready to be free. The majority of the terrestrials prefer to be guided. It is easier. Power is not needed in this case, as well as clear mind and emotional control. No drive to the Truth is needed and wisdom of the skillful dealing with the own consciousness, either. People prefer to fulfill orders of others. Although they claim the opposite, the life of the crowds, following blindly the commands of their masters in shadow points exactly to this. People do not like to think, do not want to be free, and cannot endure the vibration of freedom. It terrifies them.

There are no supporters of dogmas and religions in Ideal Center; of narrow-minded doctrines and small formulations. Vision of the world and life is all-embracing and complete. Without denying any religion or scientific school, the main anchor of the minds of the inhabitants of this holy cloister, is the science of the Devoted. And it includes and from it originate all branches of the science, all religious systems, the whole wisdom given to our human race during the eons. The aura of the center is a fiery and burns everyone who can not endure the love, power and light of its vibration. One year in such a holy place is equal to a whole life in the dusty miasmas of the leper human cities. I call Ideal an ashram, because it exactly corresponds to the meaning of the word, i.e. a center for complete development and growth of consciousness. Here, however, there is no room for any abstractness and castles in the air. Head - in the sky, but the feet - stable on the ground. The center is completely open for all. There are no secrets. The aim is complete cooperation and integration in the society of the country and the village, in which it is located. Many of the residents of the center work as instructors and teachers in the neighbour towns. Concerts are given, lesson on languages are taught, and summer camps for the children of the residents of the surrounding towns are organized. The Institute for development of the education, art and literature became a member of the UNO with a consultative status in the summer of 2005.

One big part of the songs, learned and sang in "Ideal", are the songs, given by the Teacher Beinsa Douno. They are sung in Bulgarian. It is said in Bulgarian before eating: "God Love brings the plentiful and complete life!" - three times. The buildings in the center have Bulgarian names: Prolet (spring), Izgrev (Sunrise), Videlina (Daylight), Rila, Privet (Greetings). Many of the brothers and sisters have Bulgarian names. For example, the names of the daughters of Natalia Kolesar are Lyubka and Slavka. Even the two dogs, favourites of everybody, are called Radka and Sila (power)... It is surprising a Bulgarian to hear songs and prays in Bulgarian on another continent!

When one spends some time in this clear place, saturated with beauty and cleanness, a deep internal process of purification and overall transmutation of his/her psyche takes place. This is not an easy process. The clear vibration and life, led in the ashram push you far away in your evolution, but exactly this push, in the same time, unlocks all deeply hidden animal feelings and passions, heavy thoughts and hidden impulses. This is an inevitable process on the road of spiritual rising. The higher we rise in the light of our superconsciousness, the deeper we go down into the abyss of the subconsciousness. This is an esoteric logic, well known to the researchers in this sphere. Blavatska has also spoken that. Aurobindo describes wonderfully the process in his books. The increased light of the widening consciousness penetrates into the swamp of the subconscious, stirs up its inhabitants, harnesses its powers to service it and turns it into part of it! But, when the disciple is well acquainted with this process, knows its effect, he/she is not scared, and bravely goes on his/her way. The disciple of the Teacher Beinsa Douno - Omraam Michail Ivanov, who is a patron of the ashram, explains in a amazingly sincere way in his books the approaches for work with his consciousness. He speaks about the processes of struggle and transformation. Initially the disciple is prone to struggling against his/her lower impulses. This is a good and useful exercise, but is preliminary doomed to failure. The Nasarian wise man has said: "Do not fight evel!". Later, when after many fiery rushes and heavy failures, the disciple understands that the method for restraining of the lower nature of the subconsciousness is only the transformation (sublimation)! He learns how to harness his/her drives and animal impulses so that they to pull the carriage of his/her consciousness in the desired by him/her direction! Personally for me, the understanding, awareness and application of this important principle was a milestone in my life, which gave me the keys to the portal of one different and full of light future!

When one lives with followers, with seekers of the Truth, people who have gained Wisdom not in one or two lives, the flame of the internal call kindles in him/her - the call for knowledge, for investigation of the heart of things, of the sacred truths, veiled behind the shroud of the illusion! There are unbelievable examples of progressed souls in Ideal Center - young brothers and sisters, bearing the gifts of ancient Wisdom!

In the same way as in whole Canada, the territory of the ashram is a natural reserve - a piece of paradise! Canada is the richest in fresh water country on the planet. In the numerous rivers, in September, countless flocks of salmon throng. In Bulgaria, we can see that only on Discovery channel, and in Canada, it is a normal reality. There is no empty space in the rivers and brooks. Everything sparkles. The lights are reflected by the red fins of the salmon. Bears can be seen every day. I, personally, have walked past a bear at the distance of about two meters in the forest without any attempt for attack on its behalf. We, people are dangerous, and not the wild animals. In the same way, in which there are homeless dogs in Bulgaria, which fill the ecological niche, people are surrounded by herds of does. Even if people stand at a few meters from them, they do not run. There is no reason for that. People have consciousness. They hunt only during the defined for that months - and they are only two, and at defined places. You can often see mooses, deers, mouflons, wild cats, coyotes, jackals, foxes, skunks ... In Bulgaria, in my whole life, I had seen golden eagles only once, as a little boy. In Canada, bald and golden eagles are an usual sight. Have you listened to the song of the eagles? They speak to each other! It is beautiful! Right in the high trees over my hut, there was a couple, and I frequently listened to them how they discuss their family "problems"! There is something very powerful in the voice and song of the eagles, in the birds themselves in general! God only knows why, but the summer in Canada is full of ... humming-birds! People often put for them special racks with dissolved syrup, which they hang up at their windows to enjoy the little birds! We, the Bulgarians highly value the natural facts of the geographical space, occupied by our country. However, if I compare the rich natural resources and variety of the flora and fauna of Canada with the one of Bulgaria, Canada will definitely lead on points!

The main goals and the global mission of the "Institute for Development of Education, Art and Literature" (Ideal) are:

1. To create an idea of the humanity as one united family

2. To create moral, social and aesthetic values with the help of educational programmes, art and cultural activities

3. To create local, regional, national and international prenatal and Perinatal educational programmes, centers for women in childbirth and youth centers

4. To organize seminars, cultural events and education of new type, conformed to the laws of Cosmos

5. To promote a way of life, which is in harmony with the laws of nature and respects the Earth as a living organism

Ideal Settlement is a miniature of our planetary future, such as it will be seen after, for example, a few centuries!

The Life in Ideal Center

After the nights, often full of struggle, thoughts, clashes with the own psyche, passions and longings, I got up and moving in the morning glow, I set off, creaking on the wheezy snow, to the Ever, the office of the center, to wash! The ever, besides an office, is also an internet center for the residents of "Ideal", as well as a place for lessons in violin, piano, singing ... Brother Jeal, one of the directors of the center, the right hand of sister Natasha - a man who is extremely honest, finely balanced, with exceptionally keen and bright consciousness sleeps at night in one of both rooms of the Ever! Every other day he composes, arranges the events of Ideal and teaches lessons in music, and his room is used for other purposes.

It is freezing during winter - the temperature of minus 50 degrees Celsius makes each fibre of your being to make extreme efforts for surviving and maintaining its activity. Fortunately, the electricity in Canada is at a symbolic price, the electric water-heaters work constantly, the electric heaters are not stopped; the woods gathered from fallen trunks in the forests are more than enough and heating is not a problem. Can we, the Bulgarian, living in the conditions of systemic purposeful genocide, imagine a place on the planet, where the basic means, needed for the sustaining of the major needs in life, are either free of charge, or at a funny low price; the goods are either at the same as in our country prices, or even cheaper; healthcare is free; the price of one-year higher education is as much as a one-month salary, and the wage for one day is equal to one-month salary in Bulgaria? Probably, for somebody, who has not been in such a place on the globe, this will be only a dream in reality...

After putting on the thick Canadian shirt and the furcoat and my winter boots with special double insulation, I set out for "Kiamet", the temple, in order to participate in the preparation of the breakfast. My duty was to prepare the tea and coffee, as well as to arrange the tables for the morning meeting. Unfortunately, the coffee always became strong and too sweet, after an eastern pattern - coffee a la Bulgarian! The star sky lighted my path, and sometime, depending on the season, the morning Aurora dawned on my soul!

I entered the temple, hang my furcoat and changed my boots with slippers suitable for the temple. Brother Sami welcomed me: "Hey, Orlin, how are you, my friend?" His face invariably expressed his positive energy, which he had in excess. While we were cutting the bread or strained the coffee, we were talking about lots of things, usually about things, which hardly would arouse the interest of many people - about the secret societies, Agarta and Shambala, gods and religions, psychology and cognition, the "Road" and the disciple, women and sex, Kabbala, Yoga, etc. Ideal is a center full of colourful personalities. There are kinds of characters, but the specific for most of them is the ability for working with the own psyche, an ability, adopted in the course of long years of hardships. A main feature of the inhabitants of the settlement is the balance and harmony. Calmness and power, gleam comes out of the eyes of these magicians - the residents of that sacred place! Women in Ideal are extremely charming, even the aged sisters emanate freshness and internal beauty, which change even their physical bodies. If in the stuffy miasmas of the towns one 60 years old woman accepts herself for old, in Ideal such a woman has the freshness of a 30 years old one. Despite the wrinkles and the gray hair, the mastering of the three instruments of the magic - Well guided by the Wisdom Will, Correctly used and controlled Libido, i.e. internal power and the well reared, comprehended and sublimated Emotions, they build andmaintain a strong internal center, which inevitably manifests as an outer charm and charisma. There are no cosmetic means, which can create it! Only the work on the development of the internal qualities - power, feelings and imagination - only this work nourishes with energy the body, aura, which endows the freshness to the physical body, too, and keep it young! The brothers in Ideal, on the other hand, emanate the typical for one developed and fined male principle, manifesting through the physical body qualities: Calmness, Power and Dignity, Determination and Will. The men in Ideal learn how to realize the crucial importance of their sexual power, to harness it and direct it to development of the higher levels of their creatures. These are not easy lessons and sometimes one life is not enough to be learned.

Brother Sami and me resonated very well at an energy level - that is why we were friends and shared our morning duties. Sami, a 30-35 years old man, had come to Ideal 10 ago. He had lived for 8 years in a small house, in very ascetic conditions, mediated hours after hours, gone without food months after months, obeyed strict chastity... Something that I have never managed to do ... However, when we met, Sami was at a different stage of his development. He had understood that asceticism is going to one extreme and leads to the "leaning pear", in the same way as materialism and giving out to sensual delights. He had understood that the "Road" to the Truth is not in the extremes. While I was in the center, he became closer with sister Almira, one really talented writer with deep soul, and after a while he married her! He began to run business, to look for ways for financial incomes... I, on my behalf, had dealt for many years with sexual practices and had gone to the other extreme. And Truth is always in the middle. We both had something to learn from each other.

After finishing with my breakfast, I joined the rest brothers and sisters, who met in the foyer of the temple, in order to go up in the central lecture, pray and conference hall. Each morning, the members of the center meet there to create a common energy field, send their good massages to the planet, begin to vibrate in the rhythm of the cosmic pulse and exchange energy during the chorus singing of the songs of the Teacher. I always enjoyed the voices of the sisters! As Mihail Ivanov says, a fine energy inter-exchange occurs, which synchronizes the opposite sexes, participating in it!

Here is Sister Sophie: a small woman, who, if looked with the critical eyes of a man, was not an exceptionally beautiful woman... But the education made miracles with her. Charm emanated from her - powerful magnetism, as a result of years of internal work, which made each man round her to accept her as an extremely attractive woman. Such impulses were emanated by most of the sisters - from 18 to 118 years-old ones. Even if I never again see Ideal Center and Canada, I will never forget Sister Marion - a 25-years-old girl. She emanated such mildness and purity, such goodness and heartiness, which behooves only to the holy female principle, embodied on the Earth! And Sister Ann Capp McNamara - 94-years old woman - with an incredible self-confidence, taking care alone of herself, walking calmly and confidently in ice and snow, with fresh mind and untouched memory. Sister Ann translated the books of the Master from French into English - she said, jokingly, that this was the reason for which the mater still keeps her alive ...

After the conferences, which finished about 10 o'clock, there is a brief meeting in the entrance hall of the temple, where the tasks for the day are announced and everyone joined in, depending on his/her judgment, tasks, according to his/her desire. There is not an outer order. There are no schedules. But work always ends. Consciousness is at an exclusive height.

During the summer I worked in the garden. I had undertaken the cares for one greenhouse, of which only I took cares, and when I finished there, I took care of the plants in the open garden. I did it two summer seasons. From the middle of April till the end of October I was a gardener. I got to like plants, I got to like the earth. I understood that the soil and mud, and that they are just the body of the mother -earth, thanks to which we have our bodies. I attached myself to the plants, which I raised - I began to feel them and they began to feel me - we became friends. I talked to them. And they talked to me, in their own way, they waved at me with their branches, smiled to me with their twigs, tenderly swung their tendrils. A constant etheric exchange flew between us. I cared about them. They gave me their tender vitality and harmony! On the soil under my feet, bugs ran to and fro, larvae passed through their life cycle to be born again as another creature. I understood that not only we, the human beings, are residents of this planet, that all of us are interconnected and interrelated, that we are one whole, and that one whole is not only the life on this plant, but in the whole Cosmos in general, at each level and vibration of its existence! During the cold months, the feeling of contact with the Nature disappeared and next spring I needed a month in order this thin energy interexchange to be created again and about two to be completely established. Many of the Great Teachers of the humanity use examples from the processes in the kingdom of plants to explain the laws in life of the Cosmos and claim that all they have analogues in these processes. It is a great skill to be a gardener first of all of your soul, and after that of the souls of the humans! The connection with the Nature, which I built up during my work as a gardener helped me to make a connection with myself too - to connect the lower nature, which I inhabit, the one of the animal body of a mammal, to my Real Nature, the one of the Human Being.

About 100 people live in the center and all of them are remarkable and totally different from the average individual from the public gray ordinary mass, completely guided and manipulated in the direction of separation from the Life of the Universe. All of them there strive for self knowledge, are not afraid of provoking themselves, i.e. their lower nature, to harness and tame it, till it becomes a good servant and friend. In the society of the human flock, the belief that people striving for something different from the limited materialistic interests are crazy or at least inadequate usually exists. Unfortunately, this statement is often true. However, in Ideal, everybody has firmly found his/her feet. There is no isolation from the surrounding world, separation from the usual material life, and rather its raising and fitting into a wider scheme of a complete life, which embraces both the Earth and the Cosmic social laws and customs.

An interesting personality in Ideal is Brother Yan. Yan is a 21-years-old boy, who came in Ideal at the age of 18. Appropriately for his age, he is full of energy, he is not free from passions and little weaknesses... But, it is hard to find a person, especially at this age, who to be able to control so well his/her psyche, be able so frankly to strive for the higher goals of the spiritual experience and canalize the libido and emotions into higher impulses, as well as to be a completely adequate member of the society, a diplomat and orator, actor and singer, always smiling, calm as a dzen meditator and an excellent worker. Yan participates in the garden work and looks after the animals in the center - the cow Margarita, which he milks twice a day and the hens, giving their eggs to the people. The animal, which provided milk and butter for 100 people, could not be approached by anybody else, but only in the presence of the calm strong aura of brother Yan, it quietened down and calmed. This is called daily magic...

During four winter months, when weather did not allow activity in the open, are made translations: for two winter seasons, i.e. 8 months, I translated three from the shaking-up direct and transforming books of Mihail Ivanov. The author is a disciple of the Bulgarian wise man Beinsa Douno. That is why the Master had sent him to spread the doctrine of the Brotherhood round the world. Mihail Ivanov brought the doctrine of his Master to a level closer to the consciousness of the Listener; he was so concrete that it to be practically applicable and feasible in real life. With the specific, full of humor and life style, he rendered one overall vision of the structure of Life, human being and his role in the Work, his place in the wheel of life and the important role, which he has to play in this wheel of life and from which he has diverted. The books of Mihail Ivanov are not written by him, and they are records of his speeches at conferences, presented to his disciples. The books has various topics: Kabbala, Dznana Yoga, Astrology, Meditation, Feeding, Practical Methods for internal work, etc. In all books of Mihail Ivanov, the key theme on the communication between sexes, Love and Sex is mentioned. As the author claims, the mastering and the transforming of the mental - sex energy is of crucial importance on the "Road", i.e. in the process of cognitive development of a man!

I, personally, had enormous difficulties with sublimation. Chastity was a little more than I could process. But, the lesson was good. How many yogis and monarchs have passed through similar internal experiences?!? Till my stay at Ideal, I had heard about transformation, even in the Dao practices it was mentioned, but at one more physical-mechanical level. I missed the key for the method, and it is totally psycho-spiritual!

After translating my first book: "Love and Sexuality" I read a few from the books by Mihail Ivanov, and I found out that in each of them he paid special attention to the method of psycho-transformation, and sublimation. I needed about six months for what I had read to penetrate deep into me and be learned by the deep structures of my being! It seams that together with the translations and the accepting of the ideas from these precious books I had planted a seed in my soul, which germinated in my consciousness, began to come into leaf upwards to my superconsciousness, as well as to put down roots down in my subconsciousness! This seed was the Wisdom of the Master, which accepted with all my heart. One can read the best books, but he/she does this only with the help of his/her intellect, without opening the lotus of his/her heart and without doing his/her utmost in the right direction, in order to apply what he/she has read, the result will be only dull smattering, but not wisdom. While I was making the translations, state of prayers established in me, as if I felt the Master, as if I felt the spirit of the Master, as if he worked in me, corrected me, directed my thoughts so that to render the heart and the soul of his doctrine! Sometimes whole pages mysteriously disappeared, because the compute stopped dead. In this way the master only told me that I had not done well. And really, when I translated them again I saw that I had not chosen the suitable style and words, the exact sayings and subtle nuances. I felt myself full, complete, the thin world worked through me, gave the goods of its tender vibrations, its bright insights, the beauty of the sense of life and the harmony of existence. I lost myself in meditation, melt into the flow of thoughts of the master. I understood his words not only with the help of my mind, but also with the spirit and the finest, immortal creature in me! An internal light enlightened me and it made everything around me look beautiful and poetic, each twitch of the branches of the pine, which I saw through the window, each smile of the sun, which sparkled in the evening sunset, filled me unusual nirvana and respect to the symphony of the Creation! These feelings and visions in me appeared thanks not to outer conditions, but to an approaching to the spirit of the master, to the subtle vibrations of the airy world and the essences, which are in it! Round me, life passed - people came in and went out, talked between each other, made telephone calls, the youths in the center listened to hard music on the next computer and watched the next action film... Brother Martin worked on the computer in front of me - on Maya Unlimited and Illustrator, he developed the web site of Ideal and other computer developments.

How life passed in this place of power? For example, brother Martin: an expert in computer animation, did not leave the computer. I often wondered how he managed to always in super good mood, to laugh with all his hear so much, have the power to encourage and make happy all people around, and give life with his presence! I was a blessed man to work close to him on the next computer. The communication is not only verbal, but first of all it is an energy exchange between the auras. I spoke mainly English and a little French, and martin vice versa, but this was not a problem for our understanding! One month before my coming in Ideal, Martin had experienced an awful tragedy. He, his girl friend and Brother Ive la Forre went on an excursion in the mountain. Ive had been one of the best Canadian alpinists, conquered Everest, a profesional extreme sportsman, loved to live on the edge and survive. But, at that moment destiny decided something else. While they were crossing by boat a wild mountainous stream, they turned over. Martin managed to catch some roots and with superhuman efforts to pull himself out on the bank. In front of his eyes and in his feet, his girlfriend and Ive came to the surface, but went away. Martin who had survived, three days looked for people and a settlement, ate blueberries... However, nobody found his girl-friend and Ive, despite the efforts and the rescue teams. Brother Martin was given a second life. Something happened with him since then - after going through the crises of the grief for his girl-friend, surprisingly even for himself, he changed beyond recognition. He became the most forgiving and magnanimous person, calm and an optimist. He had understood that life has to be completely lived and that there is no place for futile cares and worries. One can hardly meet more smiling and happy person than brother Martin. Happiness that does not look like the jumping of a shallow mountainous river rapids, but happiness behind which a whole abyss of painful lessons and worldly wisdom stands!

The ashram is vast. When I had time, I wondered about the surrounding forests... when, in autumn, salmon came, I entered deep in the forest, far from any noise and sat down next to the river. I looked at the millions of red fishes that came far away from the Pacific Ocean, from more than 1500 km. They had swum against the stream, overcome waterfalls and river rapids, many of the flock had become victims of bears and eagles. But the ones that had survived were countless. I thought - how much life did these 30-40 cm bodies had to be able to pass that whole distance? And what makes them do it? When salmons start the road upwards along the rivers, they stop eating. And the trip continues more than a month...

We often took for a walk in the meadows round Ideal with brother Ralf. He is from Haiti. His family has immigrated to the United States, where they spent a few years, before finally settling in Canada. Brother Ralf is the only coloured person in Ideal. Extremely intelligent, it was a pleasure to talk with him about the Great Teachers, the future of the human being, the development of the ideas, on which it is worked in Ideal. Ralf was extremely calm. The balance, which he emanated, was contagious... he and his wonderful wife had two children.

At about a km from the temple Kiamet, there are heights, a small plateau, partly covered by pines - according to the plans of Ideal, there will be an astronomical observatory in the future. When I wanted to be alone, to look at things from a higher place and forget about my petty cares, I went there, on this hill and I sat down under a pine. The fallen needles formed a natural pillow, on which I made oneself comfortable and thought... my life in Ideal was not at all easy, I went through lots of powerful internal lessons, I learned a lot, I worked on myself with the help of the thin world, the Master and brothers and sisters.

But, the lessons continue, the wisdom of cognition calls us, Love expects us to get into the appropriate mood, to be able to endure one higher vibration from its manifestation in order to fill us with power and immortality! Let us cheerfully walk on the Road to cognition, harmony and will!

© Orlin Baev
© Galina Markina - translated from bulgarian
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© E-publisher LiterNet, 29.12.2010
Orlin Baev. Transpersonal psychology. Sacred sexuality. Varna: LiterNet, 2010.